Wrong time for NY party

It's already 30.12 and I have no new year mood. Okay, it's okay. Really, no one has mood for celebrating. I've decorated my bed with shining lights and helped my mom with decorating new year tree. These are everything I did to attract mood, but it was worth.
Maybe I shouldn't be so naive about miracles. But I do think that everybody should be waiting for some magic this time. I suppose this NY will be well, not great. And let it be
Maybe later i'll find reasons for smile and happiness
I wish I could bear all my depression and enjoy the NY but unfortunately I can do nothing
It's wrong time for these minds. Wrong. Definitely wrong