I just want to know what love is!

Can you imagine... I know nothing about love! But i really want to discover it. Anyway now i wanna to say some important things about my view on love.
I want to discover love without sex. I dont even want to have a sex with my beloved, I mean i want to have a b'friend not for having regular sex! Maybe you find it kind of funny but i strongly believe that there are should be more than just physical contact. What will you do after sex? Leave you lover's flat in floods of shame!? Thats why much more better  find not only attractive person, but soulmate
Now im dreaming about having somebody to talk to, not spend all free time with but just have buy your side person who will always support you.
I see people on the street and realize that they are very happy! When i was in the bus smb called middle-aged woman and asked her about smth. She answered so calmly, her voice was so cute and warm... It was definetelly person she loves. OR when old man walking with his grandchild... Isnt it the greatest magic ever - love?
Hope i'll find something worth living.
I have a dream, big dream. I do everything for catch it and achieve my goal. My dream is crazy, as me. Its the only one thing i have.

Friends leaving me slowly, with relatives i have a very terrible relations... But i want so bad to discover what love is. Hope somebody show this wonderful magic to me

You were young. I was not old, but our story was not told!

Hello, guys. Havent seen you for ages! Anyway i have something to say:)

I ran away in floods of shame, i never tell how close i came

I started to listen to Mumford&Sons, but i have never stopped but now i discovered how amazing these guys are. I suppose i hadn't killed myself this time only because of music.
Thats really nice to realize that there is one thing you hang onto... And this thing is music, the most mighty power in the world, except love of course. But love can betray you, music cant. 
And you know i know nothing about love! What is love? have no idea about it!
I've read in books a lot about love, I've seen lots of films about it but in real life im a little confuse when random people ask me about love. 
My mom always told me that she loved me and at the same time brought me down! 
Thats why i suppose i know nothing about such interesting feeling as love is. 
No i believe in music

Sigh no more